Every day, I get these awful reminders that I’m not as great as I think I am. Let me explain. Growing up in youth group and going to a Christian college, I had kind of a skewed view of ministry. That view is this: I’m the man.
Well, I’ve been “in the ministry” for a little under 2 years, and it seems like every week (if not every day) that I get these reminders. Like when I try to lead my group in some songs and two of them get up and leave the room never to return. Or like when I plan for 50-75 students at an event that I’ve spent the past 2 months planning and promoting and 28 students show up. I hate these reminders; but they are what keep me going.
These things (among many) are what help me realize that I haven’t “arrived” yet. They help me realize that I’ve got a lot of questions to ask. I have a lot of books and articles to read. I have a lot of listening to do. I have so much learning to do as I try to be effective in helping students and their relationships with Christ. And so many times my own arrogance or pride gets in the way of what God’s trying to do in me and through me. And regardless of how amazing I am (some days more than others), I keep getting these reminders that I’m not as great as I think I am. As as soon as I get there, I become ineffective.
What kind of reminders have you had? What do you do to fight through it?